Angels Room:
U never slept in your room, you always slept with me so i could watch over you and give you bottles, play music and make sure you were ok, but you are not here now matter how careful i was with my angel boy. You used to have a tv with a vcr in it in the corner of your room on a stand. When the vcr broke and we put another one in your room you would not go back in your room again. It was over a year and you wouldn't go in there. Under the stand were your plastic little tikes trucks and flat trucks,tonka trucks. Beside that there was a train table, wooden one, with a drawer underneath it. On the train table was a thomas set with a high building, it was a circle and yo9u loved to play trains on it. You loved to sit and stand on the table and look out the window. You would pull on the bob the builder curtains and then blinds. The curtains never stayed in place, i always stayed close to you so you wouldn't fall.Beside that a white pantry cupbpard,with some of your bigger clothes in it. I always made sure you had so much clothes to grow into. Then, a large blue bin with toys, you had lots of fisher price people in it, cars, a boat that played row row your boat when it was pulled along.Your blue little tikes car bed was under the window, You liked to sit on it, jump up and down and of course pull on the curtains. There's a winnie the pooh blanket on the bed with all your pillows. A bookcase with all your clothes piled up. I used to go through all your clothes and sort them.Then a change table with more clothes, cabinets underneath with your bigger clothing..Then the door, with a play cube with activities. A blue little tikes bookcase your mother had as a child. Another little stand, winnie the pooh with a fisher price castle on it. You could pull down the towers and it would play music you loved to do that. It now sits in your c loset with your fingerprints on it. Beside your car bed there was a reed and blue desk. You would sit ther efor a long time eating snacks and watching your videos. The desk lid lifted up and abcs would stick to the inner top. You had crayons in the desk. A winnie the pooh clock ticks on the wall remembering my beautiful boy. There are only empty minutes now for time has to meaning. A winnie the pooh poster is on the wall. The pantry cuboard has your bears sitting on it, almost as if they are waiting for you but God hasn't brought you back to me. I look for you, but can only see you in my memories. Where is my beautiful angel boy? I love you so much my sweet boy.Your carbed remains in your room with a train set on it. It is waiting too, your blankets and pillows. Your crayon writing is on the walls with all the milk drips from your bottles. Your finger prints of your little hands. All these will remain till i have passed away for it will always be your room. My tears will never stop falling for the child of my heart is not here.
Our Room: Yours and mine:
I would go and fix the bed, put all the pillows around the wall, so you would never lie against the wall. I would fix the smurf pillow for your head so it was smooth no bumps and fix the blankets, I would put blankets across the end of the bed so you wouldn't get a draft from the air cleaner. Your music box was on the headboard. You loved your music box. I made sure it was always playing. I would wake up and pres sit whenever it stopped so you always had music, it was classical music and it came with your bassinet. I would get your bottle and bring it in the room.When you were smaller you would have a bath first. Then we would all go into the bedroom. I would put on your undershirt and pajama shirt and your mother would put your pullup on and your pj bottoms. Your tv would have a video tape playing usually it was wiggles. Wiggles were your favourite, it was top of the tots. Then, you didn't want to have baths anymore, didn't want to go into the bathroom anymore.. So, i would put water into a container with baby bath and wash you. You didn't like water.
We would bring in your favourite toys everynight, you wouldn't get up to go in the bedroom unless your toys were all there, your fisher price record players, your books, crayon container, your treasure box. You wanted them on the floor by the bed. Then you would lie down and i would lie down beside you and watch the videos you picked out on you tube.You would look at the shows and pick your favourite ones, You liked to watch twinkle twinkle little star and you would jump up and down and do your twinklers . You would watch yourself in the mirror. You liked to look in the mirror. We always startd with the video" open shut them clap clap clap and you would do the motions, you loved that song we played it at your funeral and memorial service. You loved your fingers and would lipt up your arms with your hands open and i would clap inbetween them and you would laugh. We did that every night.I would give you drinks inbetween all tyhese videos, you would drink two bottles of milk. Your mother would get the second bottle and when you were small shewould lie at the end of the bed till you fell asleep. Sometimes it ou a long time to go to sleep but i was giving you milk. I loved to be with you. You also liked the you tube videos, fisher price music box, one like you had you would press the place on your ipod to play it over and over again. You liked fisher price music box because it was like yours, little red car wiggles, the night before christmas, c are bears, making a clay christmas tree, annabelle, mr. magoos christmas. You lov ed christmas songs and videos. We did this till you fell asleep, when you were getting tired you would roll over and place your little hand on your bum for me to pat. That was your favourite thing. I would get you a fresh bottle and change you every two hours or sooner. I would tuck the blankets all around you when i went to go get your bottle so you would be safe and play your music box. I would run hot water on your bottle in the bathroom and peek at you to make sure you were ok every few seconds. I would touch your face while you were sleeping and you would smile for me at my touch. You knew my touch and i loved your precious smiles. In the morning i would get your bottle, pick out your clothes for the day. You would drink your bottle before you were awake, and i would change you and rub you down with johnsons baby lotion. You smelled so good. I would give you your six plastic circles, you always held them in your hand. You had gotten them in a large kinder egg your uncle jody bought for you for easter and since easter you held them tightly in your hand, you would fall asleep with them in your hand along with your soothers, pink and blue and one yellow one. Then, i would find them on the bed and put them on the headboard so you could have them when you woke up. You would wait for me to bring your treasures out to the living room, i would dress you, you would put your soothers inside your treasure box. Then i would pick you up, so i could feel your heart beating on mine and i would say to you' your heart on mine baby angel." Then you would go to the tv and take your wiggles tape out of the vcr and carry it to the living room. There was a little desk with light up tracing pictures and you would put your tape there. There was two tapes on the desk and you would always place this one in the middle of these two. You would sit in your blue chair and i would have the tv ready with your videos, then i would get your kinder egg so you could open it while i got your bottle. I would sit beside you and give you drinks. You never drank it all at once. a bit at a time. And your day, our day together would begin. I love you so much my baby boy, this is so wrong, i am so broken and lost without you. I tried so hard, always you and only you but i lost you anyway and i don't understand. You should be here now in my arms.i should see your smiles, feel your warmth. But you aren't here and my heart and soul cry out to God for my little boy who didn't get to grow up, didn't get to be a boy, didn't have a childhood. Now, there is no more anything, there is nothing but a forever emptiness. I love you my little pusskin.
U never slept in your room, you always slept with me so i could watch over you and give you bottles, play music and make sure you were ok, but you are not here now matter how careful i was with my angel boy. You used to have a tv with a vcr in it in the corner of your room on a stand. When the vcr broke and we put another one in your room you would not go back in your room again. It was over a year and you wouldn't go in there. Under the stand were your plastic little tikes trucks and flat trucks,tonka trucks. Beside that there was a train table, wooden one, with a drawer underneath it. On the train table was a thomas set with a high building, it was a circle and yo9u loved to play trains on it. You loved to sit and stand on the table and look out the window. You would pull on the bob the builder curtains and then blinds. The curtains never stayed in place, i always stayed close to you so you wouldn't fall.Beside that a white pantry cupbpard,with some of your bigger clothes in it. I always made sure you had so much clothes to grow into. Then, a large blue bin with toys, you had lots of fisher price people in it, cars, a boat that played row row your boat when it was pulled along.Your blue little tikes car bed was under the window, You liked to sit on it, jump up and down and of course pull on the curtains. There's a winnie the pooh blanket on the bed with all your pillows. A bookcase with all your clothes piled up. I used to go through all your clothes and sort them.Then a change table with more clothes, cabinets underneath with your bigger clothing..Then the door, with a play cube with activities. A blue little tikes bookcase your mother had as a child. Another little stand, winnie the pooh with a fisher price castle on it. You could pull down the towers and it would play music you loved to do that. It now sits in your c loset with your fingerprints on it. Beside your car bed there was a reed and blue desk. You would sit ther efor a long time eating snacks and watching your videos. The desk lid lifted up and abcs would stick to the inner top. You had crayons in the desk. A winnie the pooh clock ticks on the wall remembering my beautiful boy. There are only empty minutes now for time has to meaning. A winnie the pooh poster is on the wall. The pantry cuboard has your bears sitting on it, almost as if they are waiting for you but God hasn't brought you back to me. I look for you, but can only see you in my memories. Where is my beautiful angel boy? I love you so much my sweet boy.Your carbed remains in your room with a train set on it. It is waiting too, your blankets and pillows. Your crayon writing is on the walls with all the milk drips from your bottles. Your finger prints of your little hands. All these will remain till i have passed away for it will always be your room. My tears will never stop falling for the child of my heart is not here.
Our Room: Yours and mine:
I would go and fix the bed, put all the pillows around the wall, so you would never lie against the wall. I would fix the smurf pillow for your head so it was smooth no bumps and fix the blankets, I would put blankets across the end of the bed so you wouldn't get a draft from the air cleaner. Your music box was on the headboard. You loved your music box. I made sure it was always playing. I would wake up and pres sit whenever it stopped so you always had music, it was classical music and it came with your bassinet. I would get your bottle and bring it in the room.When you were smaller you would have a bath first. Then we would all go into the bedroom. I would put on your undershirt and pajama shirt and your mother would put your pullup on and your pj bottoms. Your tv would have a video tape playing usually it was wiggles. Wiggles were your favourite, it was top of the tots. Then, you didn't want to have baths anymore, didn't want to go into the bathroom anymore.. So, i would put water into a container with baby bath and wash you. You didn't like water.
We would bring in your favourite toys everynight, you wouldn't get up to go in the bedroom unless your toys were all there, your fisher price record players, your books, crayon container, your treasure box. You wanted them on the floor by the bed. Then you would lie down and i would lie down beside you and watch the videos you picked out on you tube.You would look at the shows and pick your favourite ones, You liked to watch twinkle twinkle little star and you would jump up and down and do your twinklers . You would watch yourself in the mirror. You liked to look in the mirror. We always startd with the video" open shut them clap clap clap and you would do the motions, you loved that song we played it at your funeral and memorial service. You loved your fingers and would lipt up your arms with your hands open and i would clap inbetween them and you would laugh. We did that every night.I would give you drinks inbetween all tyhese videos, you would drink two bottles of milk. Your mother would get the second bottle and when you were small shewould lie at the end of the bed till you fell asleep. Sometimes it ou a long time to go to sleep but i was giving you milk. I loved to be with you. You also liked the you tube videos, fisher price music box, one like you had you would press the place on your ipod to play it over and over again. You liked fisher price music box because it was like yours, little red car wiggles, the night before christmas, c are bears, making a clay christmas tree, annabelle, mr. magoos christmas. You lov ed christmas songs and videos. We did this till you fell asleep, when you were getting tired you would roll over and place your little hand on your bum for me to pat. That was your favourite thing. I would get you a fresh bottle and change you every two hours or sooner. I would tuck the blankets all around you when i went to go get your bottle so you would be safe and play your music box. I would run hot water on your bottle in the bathroom and peek at you to make sure you were ok every few seconds. I would touch your face while you were sleeping and you would smile for me at my touch. You knew my touch and i loved your precious smiles. In the morning i would get your bottle, pick out your clothes for the day. You would drink your bottle before you were awake, and i would change you and rub you down with johnsons baby lotion. You smelled so good. I would give you your six plastic circles, you always held them in your hand. You had gotten them in a large kinder egg your uncle jody bought for you for easter and since easter you held them tightly in your hand, you would fall asleep with them in your hand along with your soothers, pink and blue and one yellow one. Then, i would find them on the bed and put them on the headboard so you could have them when you woke up. You would wait for me to bring your treasures out to the living room, i would dress you, you would put your soothers inside your treasure box. Then i would pick you up, so i could feel your heart beating on mine and i would say to you' your heart on mine baby angel." Then you would go to the tv and take your wiggles tape out of the vcr and carry it to the living room. There was a little desk with light up tracing pictures and you would put your tape there. There was two tapes on the desk and you would always place this one in the middle of these two. You would sit in your blue chair and i would have the tv ready with your videos, then i would get your kinder egg so you could open it while i got your bottle. I would sit beside you and give you drinks. You never drank it all at once. a bit at a time. And your day, our day together would begin. I love you so much my baby boy, this is so wrong, i am so broken and lost without you. I tried so hard, always you and only you but i lost you anyway and i don't understand. You should be here now in my arms.i should see your smiles, feel your warmth. But you aren't here and my heart and soul cry out to God for my little boy who didn't get to grow up, didn't get to be a boy, didn't have a childhood. Now, there is no more anything, there is nothing but a forever emptiness. I love you my little pusskin.